Google navigation sucks. It said my destination was about a 1 mile away from the actual destination. So I got a little lost, but ended up finding the place.

I’m so nervous that I couldn’t finish my lunch. NERVOUS.

I forgot to print out my resume and references on the way home, so I have to do that on the way to the place. Which means I have to leave even earlier than I was planning on. I know for a fact I’m going to get there way before I need too.

The interview email said that the interview will take about an hour. Which means after, I have to rush to get to +Crystal’s work. All at rush hour. Looking at the map, I should be able to get on Rt. 37 to 95 North. And of course it’ll be raining.

I’m so nervous that I couldn’t finish my lunch. NERVOUS.

I get to the place, and the office is empty. The flier didn’t have a time, it just said all day. I got there about 1pm. There’s one guy sitting, waiting. He’s not in business casual.

He’s in a pair of dirty jeans. And. A. Sweatshirt. A SWEATSHIRT.

Anyways. Details of the job;

Outside Sales.
For the first 3-4 months, it would be $2k a month, paid twice a month. After that, its 100% commission. That is too unsteady for me. Great benefits though. Like I told Crystal via text message after,

“If it was salary plus commission, I’d be ok with it.”

So I think if they call for another interview, I will say thanks, but no thanks.

I don’t need the stress of having to make my pay cheque from commission.

its that i had people counting on my trip to vegas. hell i was counting on the trip to vegas. infact we would’ve been fucked if my stock cheque came the week before, because the trip and hotel would’ve been booked. non-refundable like.

i guess i’m more feeling sorry for myself because i was so looking forward to going out there again. i mean planning had been started. drinks with some close friends. relaxing in the spa tub, and at the pools. just plain hanging out and being close to crystal.

i dunno. even without a job, i feel like i’ve let people down. i feel like i’ve let myself down. i don’t know why i’m so hooked on vegas. maybe because when we went in decemeber ’10 it was the first real vacation i’ve ever had. i’ve had vacations before, at home. traveled to see crystal for a week. never really been anywhere else. maybe i was just trying to re-capture some magic from our first trip.

again, so happy that my stock cheque didn’t come any sooner, or we’d have been vegas bound in june with no spending cash for food or anything.

small miracles i guess.

i am so very happy that i’m with crystal for all the problems. like she’s said before, “we’ll get through this. we always do.” and that’s why i love the shit out of her.

so monday i was let go from work. and by let go, i mean i was in my store managers office for 2 hours being grilled about something that i didn’t take. i wouldn’t say that they were threatning me, but i think it was getting pretty close to it. but for the most part they were pretty professional about everything. it happens just like in the movies or cop tv shows. in the interrogation room, basically asking the same question just worded differently. every time they asked the question (worded differently each time), i would answer back (differently each time). i would like to tell you that, i finally got fed up and said, “you can’t fire me, I QUIT.” but you know what, that thought never entered my mind. even when i was waiting for an escort to walk me back to my office to get my things, i was telling my store manager to make sure that he copy all my options over to my associate, so he could carry on with the job.

so tuesday was my first full day without employment in 9 years. i went crazy and applied for like 7 or 8 places online, and made a list of places that i wanted to go to in person. i’m doing good, i’m getting dressed every day still. yesterday i got dressed, did some laundry and some basic cleaning in the bedroom.

i think it was tuesday when i decided that i wanted to try and raise money to become an american citizen. i tried kickstarter, and they denied my application, so someone on google+ suggested a different website. so i went there and set up a page. its called the MAKE ME AMERICAN. its doing pretty good so far. but only seems to get new donations when i am constantly pushing it peoples faces. i’m not that type of person, so maybe once a week, i’m going to pimp myself out and post a link to it. i think it would be pretty cool if crowd sourcing helps me become an american.

so yeah. its raining. and i’m home. i’m truly going to try to get some housework done today. have lots of clothes to put away, and just some basic cleaning. plus i have no excuse. i have a laptop and wifi so i can movie my computer to whatever room i’m in.

everyone is telling me that my situation is probably a blessing. i wasn’t happy there for a while. in fact, it was pretty much a relief when i was let go. its just frustrating. yanno? i didn’t feel appreciated there. while i don’t mind repetitive jobs, i could tell you what i would be doing down to the second, because for the most part, the mornings were all exactly the same. i don’t miss the place, but i really do miss some people there.

yesterday, i had to do some running around. picking up applications to different places that i wanted to put some face time in. i had to stop at the super centre to get some cat litter and cereal and milk, actually parked next to my old store managers truck. i had no idea what he was doing there, but i made sure i was on the look out, because while i don’t want to avoid him, i have nothing to say to him. while i was sitting at lunch i saw him drive by.

almost every morning i would say that i wish i was at home. so much stuff to do at home. i’m home now, and all i want to do is sit my fat ass on the couch and just sit. i would always say i have such a list of stuff to do at home. well i still have this list of stuff to do. granted, its not a lot, its just some time consuming stuff.

alright, i should finish my cup of coffee, and try to tear myself off the couch and do some laundry, and put away clothes, and actually be of use around here.

wow, i can still be long winded when i want to huh?

So its 2012 now. Only 3 more years until I get my hoverboard.

I have coffee, and I don’t plan on getting too dressed today. while I’d love to go to the mall today and maybe spend my gift card, I really don’t feel like driving into Providence today.

Was bored, got dressed and drove into Providence, and spent my gift card. Got a new coffee mug today, few movies (reefer madness, the big lebowski, and full metal jacket), and moustache socks.

We get home, and I see this on the front page of the Huffington Post. Oh happy days.

its been a long week at work. in a store with mostly brand new assistant managers, its been difficult to say the least. there’s so much freight coming in, and no one can explain why its coming in. other stores have has numerous no truck nights, and we haven’t had one in at least three months. the store is bursting at the seams with layaway, site to store, and just regular stock.

set the tree up last week (i actually forget every night to turn it on, until i’m sitting down). we’re slowly gearing up for christmas here at casa mcbride. i think this weekend, i’m gonna try and convince crystal to get some pretty clothes on and we’re gonna take christmas pictures to send to my family back home. for this i think i have to find the tripod to set up her camera. maybe then we can wrangle some cats into the picture as well.

tomorrow, i buy crystal’s gifts for christmas. i’m 99% sure of what i’m going to get her. finally its gonna be a good christmas. we have money for gifts and everything. thankfully i got my 4th quarter bonus today, so that’ll help out _so_ much.

ok, i doubt anyone read to the end of this, so i’ll stop it now!

The useless deptment manager in electronics is working a 7am-7pm shift today so she gets out of setting up her own department as well. Thats pissed off quite a few people here. I find it funny. How she’s kept her position for this long is beyond me.

Hopefully I’ll be 100% tomorrow so i can eat Turkey and all the fixings, because I have to be back in the store at 3am for my 12 hour shift. Hopefully I’ll find some good $1.96 DVDs. You can be sure I’m going to have my eyes peeled for a cheap copy of mean girls.

Sadly, no copies of mean Girls. I looked.